Updated: Oct 29, 2020
*#vulnerable post alert!
How do you see me?
Confident badass inspirational artist? Well balanced and put together? (With epic hair? 😜)
On a good day, sure. I can feel that way. But on the rest when I’m really being gut-honest, try:
Insecure about my talents, (also: body, word choices, etc), often anxiety-ridden, determined to pursue dreams while fighting depression at every turn. I freak out at my husband over stupid shiz, just to realize 90% of the time that it’s my own issues overshadowing, not him being the problem. (Though, don’t get me wrong...boys are stupid.😜🤷🏼♀)
I have to determine what’s gonna win each day- EITHER a clean house and good balanced meals on time OR work hard for goals and take 3 days to do 2 loads of laundry. (Only slightly being dramatic)
Oh, and that anger thing? Well... I’m an enneagram 8. So there ya go.
YOU KNOW WHAT I’M REALIZING THOUGH:
All that anxiety and insecurity?
Yeah, it teaches me balance and confidence in the little things.
Helps me see the good times for what they are (AND write some pretty killer songs)
It’s hard. Some days it just plain sucks. But after the arguments, we still like each other and work to make life better- together.
Ehh it’s never gonna end anyway, so learning to embrace the consistency and turn it positive is key.
The goals that I have to fight for and lose sleep working towards? Worth it in the end, as long as I remember to celebrate little wins as they come.
LITERALLY EVERY problem we face daily is an opportunity for #growth, IF we simply change how we view the things.
I am not the same person I was a few years ago. THANK GOD that even with all my issues, I have found a soft place to land and have intentionally surrounded myself with a great support system to remind me:
It’s all about your perspective. Let life grow you.
(And recognize the growth when it happens. Journal if you find value in it...You’ll be amazed at what can happen.)